Runa, 18, 2007

16 x 20 inch digital pigment print

    price and availability

Runa, 18

I'm the type of bulimic that bulimics envy.  But I'm definitely paying a toll for everything I've done to myself since I was six.  I'm amenorrheic, get laryngitis, get sick all the time, have cluster headaches, kidney failure, brittle bones and fingernails, hair that falls out, bruising.  It's definitely affecting my singing voice.  And I'm sick of psych wards.

I have no idea what my body looks like.  I can tell how much weight I've lost by wraping my fingers around my wrist.  When I look at my body in the mirror, I see me either healthy, or a fat pig, a humongous blob. 

The only time I feel good about myself is if I get a new body modification; I try to get a new one every month.  I feel that it's making my body look better.  I think if people are looking at my piercings, they won't look at my body.  Plus, the piercings really hurt, and pain means I go into complete euphoria.  So I get the piercings when I'm stressed.  I got this one in my ear done after I'd seen my mother for the first time in a year.